Let's start with the basics: Who am I ?
My name is Mridul. I'm a reasonably intelligent Hindu male of 25 yrs. All my life, the quest for God has been non-existant. I was taught in a English school supported by the Irish Brothers & the government of India. As of two years ago, I was a complete agnostic. I believed that faith of others towards an unproven god seemed pointless, even laughable.
I fell in love with a girl about 2 years back.I expected to get married to her, and spend the rest of my life with her. She broke up with me almost exactly a year later. It broke me as nothing else had till then. When she walked away, I was left pretty much rudderless, because suddenly my life had no purpose.
2 years have gone by, and I have almost forgotten her. The only thing I am grateful about is that I went through this experience. It has made me a stronger and wiser person. It has also made me more compassionate and more in touch with myself. It's a tough lesson, but well worth the rewards.
I have started reading about Hinduism (Sanatana Dharma, as it is actually.... loosely translates to, Religion which is Forever.). I also love Richard Bach (esp Illusions: The Adventures of a Reluctant Messiah), and Ayn Rand (esp. Anthem).
The primary purpose of life is to achieve 'the undoing of the Ego', or 'to attain Nirvana', and other assorted abstract concepts. They basically boil down to meditating upon the question 'Who Am I'. The answer that comes finally is 'I Am That' (translated). Incidentally, Yawveh (the Jewish God) translated to 'I Am What I Am'.
The other part of achieving this is to do action, but to be detached from the ftuits of your actions.
If this is my quest, is there any place for finding love, getting married, having children? From what I understand, the answer will change for every individual, because the path to realize god also changes for every person. I question myself all the time. Is the path I am on correct?
